And so it begins...again.

This evening my cycle FINALLY ended. Day 52. I literally gasped when I uh...realized it had ended. I was THAT surprised! It's been 52 days since I last got my period, so I had no idea when to expect it. I'm glad that it "fixed" itself. It also further confirms that I'm NOT pregnant. As disappointed as I am that I am not pregnant, it is quite a relief to know that nothing too serious is wrong with my body. So what caused the delay in my period? No clue. These things do happen so I'm told. As my mom said the other day, "Bodies are weird."

So where do we go from here? Well...today is day 1. It marks the beginning of a new cycle, thus a new chance to get pregnant. Upon the end of my period, I will wait a week or so and start with the ovulation prediction kit. When we get the smiley face, we'll start the baby dance again. Then...we wait. Waiting is the most difficult aspect. It seems that I spend the last week or so of my cycle waiting to bleed. That sounds extremely sadistic, but it's true. Bleeding signifies no baby. When I don't bleed, I don't assume I'm pregnant, though. I assume I'm late. Apparently this cycle, I was super late...or early, depending how you look at it I guess. I still plan on calling the doctor and asking about why this all unfolded the way it did, especially when my ovulation prediction kit indicated I was about to ovulate around day 19. Weird.

Anyway...new cycle, new month, new opportunity to conceive. There's something pretty peaceful about the idea of newness. It's almost hopeful. It reminds me of the song I embedded below. It's one of my favorite songs right now. Their voices and harmonies are so peaceful and hopeful. The lyrics also speak sweetly to my heart. Keep praying for us and sending happy thoughts, please. :-)

"Beautiful Things" by Gungor

All this pain
I wonder if I’ll ever find my way
I wonder if my life could really change at all
All this earth
Could all that is lost ever be found
Could a garden come up from this ground at all

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

All around
Hope is springing up from this old ground
Out of chaos life is being found in You

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

You make me new, You are making me new
You make me new, You are making me new

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us